This is a torn copy of the jazz standard “Billie’s Bounce.” It is a 12-bar blues from the 1940s by the saxophonist Charlie Parker. I tore it by accident while pulling it from under a stack of other music books. I was impatient and therefore didn’t move the other books that were on top of it. I was impatient because I am angry with myself and my inability to improvise.
What does this have to do with feminism? I played [redacted] as a teenager and had the opportunity to learn to improvise. However, women were [redacted] men. Usually, only the most [redacted] these women fought with each other. It was [redacted] At the time I had a [redacted] talented saxophone player. I wasn’t a “natural musician.”
After a gap of seventeen years, I return to the challenge of improvisation.
This item was uploaded during the 'DIY Feminist Archival Practices for Researchers' (18th Nov. 2020) workshop, facilitated by Dr Sharon Webb and Dr Niamh Moore, for the Sussex Humanities Lab open workshop series